Long story short I gave up on myself. This became too much for me and I started spiraling again. My health took aback seat to everything else going on. Running this blog and constantly getting negativity got to me. I have completely disregarded what I eat, have been doing nothing to improve my health and have been neglecting all of you. I am so sorry for that. I have come to realize that my physical health is just as important as my mental health. I now feel ready to give this my all again. I hope you can all forgive me for being gone. I am SO happy to be back and I promise to be the best that I can be for all of you. 

Thank you to those who have stayed. I love you all <3

So today I went so see my psychiatrist to review my blood test results and get on new meds. I had to take a blood test because the medication I take that helps me stabilize my bipolar disorder could affect my cholesterol levels. My blood sugar, cholesterol, blood pressure and everything came out perfect, which is a huge improvement from my exam 2 months ago!Like seriously talk about motivation. I got put on zoloft now which I am kind of nervous to take. Also I told my psychiatrist that running has been helping me a lot, so when he wrote my prescriptions he slipped in a note that was like a fake prescription which said “Running dose: 3 times a week” which I thought was really cute. But anyway I am happy everything came out so good. 

Have any of you taken zoloft? If so how did you like it? 

Its almost shark week so I am extremely emotional so ive decided to torture myself by watching the last episodes of: boy meets world, friends, and the OC 

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Hey guys! I came home for the day so that I could make Anton of make ahead meals to take back to college with me. Having food prepared and portioned is a better alternative to eat prepackaged frozen meals! This is what I am making for the week:

-egg muffins
-salads
-baked salmon
-baked stuffed chicken
-shrimp egg rolls
-quinoa “fried rice”
-roasted brussels sprouts
-butternut squash ravioli
-zucchini lasagna

So basically I have hours of cooking ahead of me! Lol

Im impressed yet ashamed of the fact that I watched 10 seasons of Friends in 1 week. 

My lips are sooo dry right now its embarrassing. I went to go get my eyebrows waxed and im laying there with my eyes closed and just keep licking my lips.. it must of made the girl doing my eyebrows super uncomfortable. 

I have officially moved back into college. Although I only go to school 45 minutes away from my house I still feel sad to not be with my parents ( I am obsessed with my parents lol). I went grocery shopping to stock up my mini fridge with healthy foods. Also I set up my nutribullet so that I can have green smoothies everyday for breakfast. How are you guys doing? What are your goals this week? 

Also someone please motivate me to walk to the gym in this 7 degree weather… 

(Source: fitnessfoodfabulous)

Okay so I am going to whole foods to go get some chia seeds & maca powder& goji berries.Have you guys tried these? How  do you like them? 

Also I think I am getting the nutribullet!

Like seriously what is going on with the fitblr community? When I started this blog the fitblr community was so encouraging and inspiring and supportive and just amazing. While some of it is still like that most of it has changed. I keep seeing other fitblrs getting hate because of their weight or lifestyle choices or opinions and its just not okay. Like so what that fitblr decides to take a different approach at weight loss than you? As long as its healthy who cares? its not your decision! I know personally I feel like I cant post anything with someone giving me backlash for it. Idk I just think I might need a break from all of this.